Looking up
Things seem to be looking up for me at the moment. For some reason, good things have all come at once! I’m being ‘promoted’ in work which means I get to boss people around and have that bit more freedom… I am being pushed to achieve my blackbelt at the end of October… I did as well as I wanted in my exams… Things between me and Paris seem to have taken a turn for the better… My future seems more solid… I finally don’t feel so insecure… I have my motivation to achieve and actually get up in the morning back… I haven’t had ‘those thoughts’ in such a long time I hope I am finally past that rather scary stage, having come so close to actually following through… I have found a way to release what I can’t say… I have some amazing friends… I am looking to pass my driving test asap.
I don’t know… for once I feel happy, yeah ok so there are still things that are tainting it, but I know I have people I can talk to now. I am determined to make this year of my life a contrast to the last one. I want it to be a year to remember, but this time, for all the right reasons. So thank you Cookie, thank you Pigeon, and even though I know you’re not reading this, thank you Paris and thank you Leonie and Rhi. You are all amazing and deserve every happiness. xxxxx
