Just Smile and Wave

I am

I see

I hear

I think

I plot

I plan

I stress

I panic

I worry

I know

I am…

I writhe

I hate

I love

I cherish

I question

I argue

I break

I heal

I wonder

I scheme

I am…

I quiver

I shake

I sob

I breathe

I tear

I rip

I cut

I feel

I spiral

I am…

I am all that you made me

I am all I have been

I am all that you don’t see

I am all that I dream

I am the light in the window

I am the one curled up inside

I am the dark in shadow

I am the one that hides

I am the one that you know

I am the one that you don’t

I am the one that will go

I am the one that won’t

I am a hundred different things

I am not yet me

I am yet to find my wings

I am yet to flee

I know that I am normal

Somewhere deep inside

I will break down my wall

And not have to hide

I hope that you will accept me

With all my scars and past

For who I want to be

And not just my mask

But I am too afraid to loose it

Its been there for so long

It grew stronger with every hit

And I may just be wrong

My wounds are deep

I have come to know

With the mask I can keep

All I don’t want to show

There is no happy ending

At least not yet

I am still mending

But I’m willing to bet

I will get there one day

Though I can’t do it alone

I have people to show the way

To forget all I have known.