Thank you
Have just been reading my cookie’s posts… thank you for reminding me that through all this head ache and stress that I’ve been wading through has a silver lining. I am really happy that you have found some one to conquer your ‘commitment issues’ with. And reading that you have reminded me that I have some one who is willing to help me get through anything… just as long as I am willing to let him in. I have done some bad things. I have been feeling out of control again, and you know what happens when I feel out of control. I’ve lost weight. Even in a few days. I have to admit, I did cut myself too. However, I used paris’ pen knife. I think it may be infected. It’s not deep, I just wanted to feel that. It’s really sore. Paris doesn’t know. He was downstairs, I’d asked to be left alone for a while whilst I tried to sort my head out. He doesn’t know I’ve been being sick as well. I have to tell him. I promised him I would. But I already lied, I told him I caught my arm on a broken hanger at work.
I need to start letting paris in. He is so lovely to me and I actually feel happy and accepted. I have sorted things out now cookie. We talked and things are on the up. He is pushing me up and helping me in so many ways, I don’t think he realises most of the time. And cookie you have no idea how good it is, just falling asleep and knowing that when you wake up in the morning you have the person you love wrapped round you and knowing that it will be that way for the next few nights. As you know, I pretty much live there. I really do love him.
